If Only You Could Realize I'm Sorry...

Telling the truth won't do,

for that was a surprise to be

God alone knows that I really wanted to make a change

in you and be the first to greatly surprise you.

But it all fell on me and I feel like simply taking my life away though it won't help and God forbid.

I know exactly how you feel about me 

for it's not the first time it's happening

and I doubt if you'd ever again give me a genuine smile.

Am sorry from the bottom most part of my heart

and it was never meant to be that way

and will never happen.

But though I've hurt you and I also hurt

I still love myself for I sacrificed myself

and went beyond my pride to make it worth.

Though all gone through and wasted.

God had a perfect reason

and from someone who is madly

and frankly in love with you, I'll miss you.

You were and always have been sweet,

I miss the way we used to drive the whole city wild,

I miss your touch comfort and more so Imiss you.

I know I'll never ever be with you again

but whoever loves you better love you the way I did

'coz one day you'll realize I love you

but maybe now it's time to move on.

I love you and as long as you are happy

I'm happy too and I'll desperately miss you!

I'm sorry and I love you my Arvee Marie...

The Wait...

Time Clicks as I await

The hour ends before my take
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes

The day grows old as night passes
Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating
Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing

Silence begins the day
as morning comes without notice
Tears begin to fall, slowly

The day moves on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be

The sun moves to its peak
without a whisper or retreat

Time moving, but still empty
Stomach aching, curling
Still waiting

Realize...

I loved you more than I have ever known
Those starry eyes
Those tender lips
You made my heart melt
Then boil into a roaring fire
I now know
What my eyes could not see
You are the only one that is for me
Many nights those tears flew
Being myself without anyone
Anyone to care about the thoughts
Looking at the sky and knowing
Many mistakes I had
Many mistakes I have had

Sunday Gospel: 6th Sunday Ordinary Time (Feb.10, 2011)

Matthew 5: 17 - 37
17	"Think not that I have come to abolish the law and the prophets; I have come not to abolish them but to fulfil them.
18	For truly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, not an iota, not a dot, will pass from the law until all is accomplished.
19	Whoever then relaxes one of the least of these commandments and teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but he who does them and teaches them shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.
20	For I tell you, unless your righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
21	"You have heard that it was said to the men of old, `You shall not kill; and whoever kills shall be liable to judgment.'
22	But I say to you that every one who is angry with his brother shall be liable to judgment; whoever insults his brother shall be liable to the council, and whoever says, `You fool!' shall be liable to the hell of fire.
23	So if you are offering your gift at the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you,
24	leave your gift there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift.
25	Make friends quickly with your accuser, while you are going with him to court, lest your accuser hand you over to the judge, and the judge to the guard, and you be put in prison;
26	truly, I say to you, you will never get out till you have paid the last penny.
27	"You have heard that it was said, `You shall not commit adultery.'
28	But I say to you that every one who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
29	If your right eye causes you to sin, pluck it out and throw it away; it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell.
30	And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away; it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell.
31	"It was also said, `Whoever divorces his wife, let him give her a certificate of divorce.'
32	But I say to you that every one who divorces his wife, except on the ground of unchastity, makes her an adulteress; and whoever marries a divorced woman commits adultery.
33	"Again you have heard that it was said to the men of old, `You shall not swear falsely, but shall perform to the Lord what you have sworn.'
34	But I say to you, Do not swear at all, either by heaven, for it is the throne of God,
35	or by the earth, for it is his footstool, or by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King.
36	And do not swear by your head, for you cannot make one hair white or black.
37	Let what you say be simply `Yes' or `No'; anything more than this comes from evil.

Reflection:

Today, Jesus tells us: «I have come to fulfill the Law» (Mt 5, 17). What is the Law? What is ‘The Prophets’? By the Law and the Prophets, Jesus meant two different sets of books of the Old Testament. The Law refers to the works believed to have been written by Moses; the Prophets, as the name itself indicates, are the works of the Prophets and the Sapiential books.

In Today's Gospel, Jesus refers to those who are considered the summary of the moral code of the Old Testament: The commandments of the law of God. According to Jesus, the Law isn't merely about external principles. It isn't an external imposition, on the contrary. Actually, God's Law corresponds to the ideal of perfection that is deeply rooted in the heart of every man. This is the reason why they who keep the commandments not only achieve the accomplishment of their human aspirations, but also the perfection of christianism, or, in Jesus's words, achieves the perfection of the Kingdom of God. «Whoever obeys them and teaches others to do the same will be great in the kingdom of heaven» (Mt 5, 19).

«But I say to you» (Mt 5,22). The observance of the Law isn't restricted to the letter, since «For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life» (2Cor 3:6). This is the meaning in which Jesus employs His authority to interpret the Law according to its most authentic spirit. As Jesus interprets it, the Law is extended to its ultimate consequences: the respect for life is connected to the eradication of hate, vengeance and offense; the chastity of the body, to the purity of intentions; the perfection of matrimony depends on fidelity and indissolubility; the truth of the word given starts with the respect for pacts. By observing the law, Jesus «fully reveals man to man himself and makes his supreme calling clear» (Vatican II Council).

The example of Jesus invites us to that perfection of Christian life in which we practice with actions what we preach with words.

Lonely Nights...

The night’s going cold and I’m growing old..
Everytime you’re gone is more lonesome than the last one..
And I’m spending all this night, without you in my life..
And you’re still on my mind..
Nothing to regret, when you blew off my mind..
I’m tired to be alone..
Why don’t you just come home with me?
Because I miss you so,
And I want to yell, for you to know..
If you could see me now,
We could move on somehow..
If I could travel a mile,
everything I’d do…
Just to see your smile..

Value of Life...

We human beings have been given the faculty to see and classify things and objects according to their “value”. And many times things are of importance or no importance to us depending on their capacity to satisfy our needs. We have spiritual and material needs: the crucial question is: which of them do we prefer to satisfy first? We can see the interplay of material and spiritual values in the following case study. A company made a survey of two groups of people who were asked about the most important goal of their lives. Their answers were the following:


Group 1
Architect: to have more projects that will permit me to have more money.
Engineer: to develop systems that will be useful and thus easily be sold.
Lawyer: to win more cases and have a Mercedes Benz car.
Manager: to make business more profitable.
Athlete: to gain fame and worldwide recognition.


Group 2
Prisoner: to walk freely in the streets.
Blind: to see the light of the sun.
Deaf: to listen to the sound of the wind.
Mute: to be able to say to persons how much he loves them.
Invalid: to run in a very sunny morning.
Persons with AIDS: to live a day more


Group 2 persons desire things that money cannot buy while those Group 1 wish money and fame, having already the things that money cannot buy. Many people have immense riches which money cannot buy and do not appreciate them, seeing their “treasure” in things that have a price and which can be bought by money.
Healthy people take foe granted their sight and hearing until they become deaf and blind, and thus, starting their dream of being able to hear and see. We need not label the people of Group 1 as “bad” while those of Group 2 as “good”. But at times, it takes a serious sickness for us to appreciate what we are: the God- given gifts which we have taken for granted because we have them from birth. Fame and money are the obsession of the healthy, but once they lose their health, these two easily disappear. Money and Fame belong to the world of “having” which many times contradicts the world of “being”, but experience teaches us that many times, we are engrossed in the world of “having”. The world of “being” refers to ours spiritual needs, while that of “having”, to our material needs. The crucial question is: how can we be more spiritual in this world glutted by greed for material possessions and well- being? Do we need to lose some of our physical qualities like our eyes and feet in order to understand their importance?